Whenever I think about whether this is like a movie script, it all happens according to a totally controlled predestination, or we are really making choices that change our destinies, I always visualize myself living that "life", and that possibility looks so real that I'm convinced every Time that I could've ruined my Life if I had let doubt and "fear" rule me. Do you know what I'm talking about? I see my "self" there distracted from the real Thing, working to maintain a "high" standard of material living to keep a "woman" that "loves" me because of the "things" I offer her, with no friend to warn me about that shit, that it's "all" wrong and I should let it go. I had to be my own Trinity and Morpheus, or else that would certainly have been my fate.
